Today I started looking for new jobs. I updated my cover letter, changed the address on my resume and started applying. Now, I'm not sure that anyone will actually hire a teacher for the last 9 weeks of school but I'm willing to work those 9 weeks! My original plan was to stay here at this job until around August but to start applying for teaching jobs for next school year. I was hoping to find a job and sign a contract in May or June and then work here through July then start on the classroom in August. Well, that was then and this is now. A lot of things have changed. I've come to realize a few things about myself and I've been pushed a little too hard at work (in a negative way). And guess what? This is all a little (ok a LOT) scary to me! I have a lot of concerns not only about this but also some other things going on and to be completely honest I'm having difficulty giving it over to God. However, after discussing this in detail with a wonderful friend last night I received this in my verse of the day email: "The LORD is my light and my salvation- so why should I be afraid? The LORD is my fortress, protecting me from danger, so why should I tremble?" That's Psalm 27:1 for those who wanted to know. Really God? Is it that simple? I should just trust You and know that you will take care of me? Is that easy? I want so bad to ask David how easy it was for him to actually live this out. I'm not the type of person to take my problem/issue/etc and give it to someone else to fix/take care of/etc. I want to fix things for myself. I want to take care of things and make sure they are done "the right way". I want to see it from start to finish. I'm also the type to reluctantly let someone help but guess what- I'm standing over their shoulder watching to make sure they do it right! But oh to be free from those burdens! What it would be like to let God take control and have that weight and responsibility lifted off of my shoulders! I think this also falls under the "Cast your cares upon Him because He cares for you" section of living too. If I can figure out how to cast my cares on Jesus and let Him take them from me AND not be afraid or worried because I'm a child of God and he is my light and salvation and fortress and protection...how amazing life could be!